Oh Itxy, you have that drive (sometimes 'curse' in the lowest points) that won't let you stop even if your flesh collapses of old age and you become an incorporeal being roaming this place, still trying to finish that goddamn novel.

I got it too. And you're right, it would've been a waste of time. If you haven't stumbled upon Lisa Cron's books, "Wired for Story" and "Story Genius," check them out.